3/19/2014
10:17pm at Fenwick Library
Today was such a lonnnngggg dayy and unfornately for me, its STILL not over :( I've been studying at the library since 7pm for the two government exams I have tomorrow. WHYYYYY? I also just realized I have an appointment with one of the Computer Science professors tomorrow at 9:30am. I guess I won't be getting any sleep tonight. I've had a lot of things on my mind lately and I honestly just want another snow day or a break even though Spring Break was last week. Ughhhhhhhhhh~ I've thinking about switching my major but I'm already too far into my major so I can't switch cause I'm basically almost done. I thought I would enjoy majoring in Global Affairs and minoring in Japanese Studies but when I'm looking at what I'm studying in college I'm realizing and asking myself "what am I going to do to make a living with my major and minor when I graduate from college?" I thought I wanted to be a lawyer for the longest time but since winter break, I've been having like a mini life crisis and panicking cause I don't think I want to be a lawyer. I've been working hard towards that goal and now that I don't really have one. I'm not really focused on my studies like I usually am. I had my Japanese exam today and I'm pretty certain I BOMBED IT :(. MY GPAAAAAA~~ AHHH. Anyways so since January I've been thinking about adding another major in Computer Science. I've always been interested in programming and coding and I've been playing around with it a little and it seems pretty fun but I don't know if I would be able to handle a HARD major like Computer Science. I was never good in math so I've been really thinking about it. But even if I do graduate with a degree in Computer Science, I don't know if I'll be successful and happy as a computer programmer. I wish I could talk to someone about this or just get better advice than I've been getting. At least I'll be able to get some answers from the Computer Science professor I'm meeting tomorrow but honestly, I feel like she's just going to say "Ummmm, if you haven't done any coding or have any experience I suggest you don't major in it." ARE YOU SERIOUSLY TELLING ME ALL COMPUTER SCIENCE MAJORS CAME IN WITH HAVING EXPERIENCE DOING CODING? YOU'VE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME?! IF THEY ALL CAME IN WITH EXPERIENCE THEN WHY WOULD THEY EVEN BE STUDYING AND TRYING TO GET A DEGREE IN COMP SCI?
I've been reading a lot of stuff about computer science and I realize its math based but I seriously hope this woman doesn't tell me that all comp science majors are math geeks cause they PROBABLY ARENT. I feel like I'm considering and looking into something I shouldn't even be doing. I don't know. It just sucks cause right now I have way more questions than answers.
hang in there girl! and it's so weird that the prof is saying you need computer programming skills coming into the program. isn't it the profs job to teach the students that skill? it's like saying someone needs to know how to do surgery before going into a premed program -_-
ReplyDeleteThanks Hadear! :/ It's really tough at times but I gotta keep going. I can't give up now lol. Yes! OMG~ I mean at least the professor is being honest I guess? I don't know. I think professors act that way so we know for sure what we're getting into and I like your example! You make a very good point~
ReplyDeleteexactly! if things start to get stressful just remember that everything will work out! i always tell myself that. hard work will be rewarded :) and i guess, i feel like comp sci profs are mean though because my freshman advisor was a comp-sci prof (i have no idea why though, im not comp-sci) and she was really mean and unhelpful. i'd ask her a question and she'd be like 'why do people always ask me things i don't know?' and i'm thinking 'why did you sign up to be an advisor then?!'
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